Hi jman,

Firstly, major kudos on the nine months SI free!!!!
And that shows you have A LOT of strength in the path moving on from here, and you've already got something that could really work for you on the road ahead.

And respect that you're recognising the potential impact the first cut can have on you personally, and you're reaching out so soon.

So, I'd say that you're absolutely right, in that lying about it probably isn't going to be helpful
I'm sure you know how addictive SI can be, and the sooner you reach out for help the more advantage you may have in tackling it sooner.
As for potential hospitalisation or changing of meds.........then that doesn't necessarily have to be the next step
Hopefully most professionals would work with you on other strategies first e.g. learning to recognise triggers, recognising vulnerable times and learning/applying more coping skills..........meaning they should talk with you, not at you............

And for right now...........try not to set in your mind that this is the inevitable start of major cutting, it might not be at all easy, but you have managed to stop before, you can do this
So, as hard as I know it can be, a little more focus on the fight to get back to where you were as well, hey??
Maybe you could pull on things that helped in the past, or try/experiment with different coping strategies, or go more into what could be triggers, or what the cutting is giving you which could to a point be replaced by more "healthy" alternatives............and maybe you can pull on us for some extra support with this...........??

We know it's not at all easy, and it doesn't make you weak that you've slipped..........but just remember that strength, and try and let it help in finding a way to move on from this. You can do it!!!



Alison