Só leigheas,

I feel so much pain expressed in your post, but great courage too!

I'm sooo sorry you have to struggle so much but it's people like you that this world needs more of. People who consider what other people need as well as themselves and who want to build people up.

I pray for peace for you, at least in some measure that you can feel and the knowledge in your heart (not just your head) that all that trouble is worth it for your loved ones.