And I don't mean to sound flippant about your situation. I really can relate to the anxiety and being afraid people are trying to get in here.

That's why I called the police last night. Usually when I've heard someone trying to get in my door I just ignore it. But last night, even hearing me on the phone with the police, the freak kept trying my locks. That scared me badly. And then the cop saying no one had been outside my door. Just completely denying what happened.

I don't blame you for not wanting to tell people how much you struggle. All they do is deny what's going on, except for even one person you can trust to tell. I'm so grateful for my friend. He doesn't always believe me about things either though.