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Stay off the couch and stay busy, she said. But here I sit...all day today minus my two appointments and all day yesterday. Paralyzed with anxiety and sadness. Unable to breathe or function...barely caring for my children and getting annoyed by their constant need for attention. I feel like a failure.
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now
Tori Amos ~ Crucify
Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
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