I'm kind of in the same place as I was yesterday. Still feeling a bit better than I did before I joined. My first few days here, I think I was here all day, lapping up all the information and setting up my profile. The last couple of days, I've paced myself better so I spare time to do other things like read the paper. (I have to know what's going on in the world).

But I also see how things I'm doing here are loosening me up. I appear to be starting to slowly get back in touch with parts of me that I cut myself off from the last few years. Not long ago, I was in such a state of constant panic, all I did for almost 2 years was sit in a chair and try to hang on. I was also in a state of shock because of some recent traumatic events. (I was heavily medicated then, but nothing helped, and neither did therapy.) Even if I could even think about things I used to care about, doing so was too painful because I'd lost so much.

The MI support forums and chats at PC have helped, as I hoped they would. But I'm surprised at how the light Coffee House threads and chats have also helped me relax more and start to think about things that, in the past, I'd always cared about, or been interested in, but got disconnected from. If this keeps up, I may be on the road to finding myself again.

I attended DrJohn's Q and A chat last night--I'm trying to attend all the chats that pertain to my Dx, and it's helped a lot. I've been to Depression Chat, and Anxiety Chat each week since I've joined. Unfortunately, PTSD Chat is on Saturday evenings, and I am busy then.

I recommend the chats, if any of you haven't tried them. Chatting with others in real time can also help draw you out.

--Ceara1010