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Originally Posted by Gabyunbound
Recently I've been tempted to stop one of my AP's (at least) because I miss hypomania so much and it's been 2 years since I've experienced it.
So a friend of mine told me that what I need to do is mourn the loss of those experiences and also how I was before so much medication (now with poor memory and fatigue).
Does anyone else think of this in terms of 'mourning a loss?' Do you find it helpful and therapeutic to think of it this way? Does it (or would it) help you to move on and stay on your meds?
ETA: Sorry guys, I was checking out this forum and posted on the wrong one -again, sorry!!
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That's a really good way to put it: "mourning the loss" of hypomania., and it is therapeutic to think of it this way. I recently entered the mourning phase of hypomania once again. I was feeling so euphoric for a while: spending money on all these nice trips, living in sort of this "fantasy" world as if it will never end. When reality hits me, it is awful. I think that the mourning phase takes time...usually it happens when I'm falling into a depressive episode, but that's a cue that it's time to look into a possible med adjustment. I miss the euphoric feeling and compare it to a "high" or drug. It's not good for you, yet you crave it any way.
I try to think of the reasons why continuing to be in a hypomanic state would lead to even more consequences then it already did. Keeping this in mind helps me realize that staying grounded in reality and coping with it is much healthier than being in a hypomanic state (that sometimes turns into full-blown mania). That being said, I've been feeling sad, and I'm trying to cope and come to terms with it.