thank you Skeezyks for that much needed hug. I am surrounded by family, co-workers and can't get one hug. I'm a mess and I know it and these turns of events just makes me that much more reluctant to keep trying.

I've signed up with multiple job search sites and have been combinb the want ads daily. Everyone is telling me to chill and just collect unemployment for as long as I can...then what?

I have not used a resume in over 20 years and having no real skills that make me marketable just cancels the resume out. It matters not anyway. I'm too old to learn new tricks and my health is just borderline enough to keep disability at bay.

I guess I should have posted this somewhere else. I wanted to vent and perhaps hoped someone could shed some small hope. Maybe someone knows something I don't.

Thank you for taking time to respond....it meant a lot.