The Christians I've known in my life all believed as you do. Some people have extreme faith. As long as you are not plotting harm towards yourself or others, you are not insane in my book. I don't see the harm but I don't know your full story or what you do in the name of religion. The Christian community is strong and you should be able to make some prayer friends who have strong religious feelings like yours. Some churches speak in tongues on the regular. Most of the population in the US is some form of Christian. You are ok I think. Just let your doctor know what is going on for you and keep you and the kids safe.