I'm sorry you're dealing with some painful emotions right now. Ending with a T, for any reason, is difficult. I think it is even harder when there doesn't seem to be closure...

I am new here so I certainly don't know what your experience was like. However, up thread you mentioned that she took calls during your session and was often late. While I can understand and appreciate occasional lateness due to the unknowns that come with therapy, consistently failing to be on time would cause me to feel as though I was an afterthought. Phone calls during a session...that is extremely unprofessional. My previous T would look at her phone and even answer text messages in session and it was distracting and hurtful. I couldn't imagine her taking a call, though! I did have two instances with my dietitian, though. The first, her phone was buzzing and buzzing and buzzing. Finally, she asked if it was okay for her to look at her phone to make sure there wasn't an emergency. It turned out that it was her husband and he had gotten into a car accident (he was, thankfully, uninjured). The second time, she told me at the start of our session that her young daughter was sick with a very high fever and that her sitter could potentially call if there was an issue. Both times, I understood and appreciated her respect for me. I will say that I have known and worked with this individual for almost 10 years and I know she has a young family. Had she not informed me or asked me, my feelings may have been different. But, I was prepared and these were extenuating circumstances.

All that is to say that if you felt disrespected or as though you were not important, it may be best not to work with that T anymore - especially if this is something that you've brought up in the past. Your T's behavior does sound unprofessional and if you felt it was getting in the way of the work you could do, it sounds as if that relationship has run its course. If you haven't discussed how it makes you feel, that may be somewhere to start IF you want to return with that T. But, if you're so bothered (and, I would be as well), it may be best to consider looking for another therapist.

Maybe consider why you want to go back. Is it attachment? Fear? Uncertainty? The need to work on continued issues? Once you can define the why, it may be easier to decide how to proceed. In the meantime, keep reaching out and asking for support. If nothing else, it may help you make it through each day a little easier...