Oh dear. I had a similar experience almost a year ago. I KNEW it was my destiny to win the lottery for x amount of reasons. I cannot tell you how much money on spent on this not including that I did match the powerball three times in a row and that egged me on.

Can you make an urgent appointment with your T or maybe a new one that you can physically open your mouth and let your brain out to? A final recommendation. Is to limit and challenge yourself to buy only one ticket and one dollar per play.
Good luck and I hope that you find some peace soon!