Hi Succonniews and to PC
Only you can figure out your sexual orientation. If you dont feel a strong clear preference for one gender or the other well then there is a wide range in between and labeling yourself is a personal choice. You dont have to adhere or accept any label unless that is something that you find nessecary to your own indentity values. For many ppl it is not about male vs female it is about a true indiviual connection. Love is also a broad spectrum. You can feel love strongly for different people in different ways. Like, I love my best friend just as much as I love my husband, but I do not feel sexual desire for my bff, but i do for my husband. Snd they do happen to be different genders,but i dont view myself as strictly heterosexual. My first serious committed relationship was with a female, we were in love and very sexually compatible it lasted 2yrs, but then we just wanted different things.. Although, i did not marry my ex gf,i was just as loyal and manogamous in that relationship as i am in my marriage. Love and relationships are very complex. Sex is an urge. It is a basic human need just like food air and water shelter and companionship. Also like all other basic human needs, our prefence, amount, and level of desire can change with our life experiences. Love and lust do not always go together. Some ppl need to feel loved in order to be comfortable to be sexually intimate and others can be sexually intimate with out even knowing the other person's name. And there are infinite numbers of other views, values, and preferences in between and outside. Just give it time and face the world with an open mind and heart, im sure that you will that what and or who is right for you.