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Originally Posted by kecanoe
What you are describing could be a dissociative disorder or a psychotic thing. I had to take a whole bunch of tests to be diagnosed DID.
Regardless, those parts probably have something to tell you. Journaling was a good tool to give them each a chance to speak.
I've been told that there is no med that helps with DID, and the antipsychotic and antidepressant and anti anxiety meds that I have tried did not quiet down the parts. So maybe the fact that you are responding to the meds means you are not dissociating. Have you asked your dr or therapist?
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Journaling was actually the main way we communicated. Communicating inside the headspace was really... the only way I can describe it is.. clogged up? It was like there was a bunch of stuff in the way and everything became muffled whenever we tried to communicate. We'd basically write back and forth on paper a lot to communicate whenever things were too muffled in the headspace.
Recently actually, I think I saw someone new in the headspace. Like, I got these glimpses in my mind of this person that was like a chameleon. They were becoming basically invisible. Though, I'm starting to think maybe everything is just made up in my head, seems how they almost always only exist whenever I'm thinking about them.
I just don't know anymore. It's driving me crazy because I can't tell what's real or fake. I thought I felt Lily again last night, but in all likelihood it's probably nothing. I'd like to believe that things just quited down on their own, which has happened before with Lily's disappearance for a whole year. I don't know what to believe, though
I feel like I'm just being an insensitive asshole and faking everything. But, I can't even tell if I'm faking it!