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Old Jun 09, 2016, 01:03 PM
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I become paranoid I will be brutally murdered. It's distressing. I fear aging and becoming crippled and being taken advantage of. I do not fear dying naturally. When my time comes, I will gladly go. Just don't murder me brutally.

I have an extreme fear of my loved ones dying. It strangles my insides to think about it. I hate when anyone I care about leaves their home and especially if they drive. I have severe car phobia.
I used to have that. Being either certain or rather extremely worried that something bad had happened to someone. It's not just (strictly) SZ or BP, in my case, I suppose (also/but part of my personality). But it probably/likely does make the feelings more intense.

I also needed to contact people (very) often to make sure they were alright.

Antipsychotics have really helped a lot.
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