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Originally Posted by ElsaMars
My delusional thinking begins in mania as far as I can tell. It has followed me into depression. My meds help with delusional thinking. My delusional stuff has to do with being stalked by evil organizations who are trying to either force me to toughen up and join them, or they will torment me. I get so confused but always know I don't want to be evil and don't want to join the stalkers because I hate them and what they do.
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Wow...that's exactly what I experienced.
In my heart no matter how delusional I was I knew I was "good" and not evil and had to fight for God not the devil or anything else. But that lead me to be aggressive at points where people were treating me very poorly (guards) as I thought I was supposed to fight back for the sake of good.