being free from all mental illness.

i wouldn't know what to do with myself.. wouldn't have a clue. i'd get up and be like, hmm, what do i do with myself now?. i never had a plan for my life- then i'd spend the next 10 or 20 years mourning the years i've lost.

also making a friend that lasts more than 1 week. again, that's a concept that scares me.. i'd be like what?. no one's ever cared for me before- how do i deal with this.