I agree I was told this by other people too. My roomie said at social events I come across as I don't want to be there for me it's codependency and abandonment when I'm left alone.

Of course I still have a great deal of fear and terror that I still carry. I'm in a better environment more positive but I haven't been able to feel authentic yet. I still carry deep resentment and bitterness it still requires a therapist to work on.

Sigh. Another issue is they say I don't talk much I'm too quiet yes I am another fear issue. I used to be so outgoing this quiet version of me is from years of abuse not even the real me.

Hmm I need to find some resources to start the process not sure when I'll go see a therapist. Not sure where to start? I tend to sulk and withdraw I've been in therapy to help myself I don't need people to point out my negative flaws see how I'm starting to feel resentful? I know my issues they don't.