Thank-you. I do know that I'm obsessing. It is confusing. I have brilliant insights and some, most of them largely, turn out to be true.

I also am spending hours and hours a day, everyday on this, and I can't stop. I am on to something with it though, that is why. Plus the bipolar, but I couldn't be on to it, if not for the bipolar. It's the same on/off binary code I talked about before. I couldn't be doing this if I wasn't bipolar.

I do not want a med adjustment. I'm OK with taking lamictal, risperdal, and klonopin. I'm OK with the doses I take right now. If I were to start over or stop one I do not think it would go well. The depressive state you mentioned is a possibility, but I am learning that if so, I should not feel suffering, because it's all just chemicals in my head. The same ones that let me do the math and science I'm doing now. There has to be a better way to negotiate them to work in concert with the full system.

I re-read that and it sounds totally manic and maybe is so, but regardless, last night I pretty much called 12 and 25, and the week before 16, as almost guarantees, for that drawing. And it's not guess work. I am not saying lottery is not random. I'm saying when you win it's not random.

I would like more feedback on this if it's possible and I thank-you for it.