Well it's scary to say, but I think I may have finally managed to make that commitment. I have been put on lithium and while I was told I could have maybe 1 or 2 drinks at a time I definitely have to not binge. Unfortunately for me one or two always then turns into a binge. So I am doing my best to abstain altogether. It has been about 3 days so far... Fingers crossed this is the kick up the butt I needed to get me to stop.