Thank-you. I agree the obsession needs better balance. And yes, the feelings are real. And uncomfortable. Very sometimes.

There was a week when things were in balance. And I felt good. I was hypomanic but low-grade harmless. I think I'm probably irritated hypomanic - low grade manic right now.

This sucks. I am right about this, I know I am. If I find a safe OK way to harness it, which means I will sleep more, I can not be obsessed and get to enjoy it. Which I initially did and still do when I have the insights. That is every few days or so. There is a way to find balance. If I can figure out this code to the degree I have so far, I can figure out the balance in my life, and if I do, I actually give myself a better chance at figuring out more of the code. This is not about gambling to me. At all. It's about a math and science project that, if solved, results in a landslide of amazing things. It's the same code. On/off.

I'm manic at the same time I feel I've mastered my life.

This is my life's work right now. I can't work on it all of the time though. I'm going to limit myself to 30 minutes the rest of tonight. When I start thinking about outside of that time, I will say my cat's name to snap me out of it. So I might be saying it a lot!!!

I like the sound of this. Thank-you.