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Old Jun 09, 2016, 08:25 PM
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Originally Posted by cincidak View Post
Sometimes I still overthink my illness. Is this my illness, or is this normal behavior? It's natural to start evaluating our behavior, I still do it, but now that I'm stable on meds and therapy I do it less. Research as much as you need to about bipolar disorder , and get comfortable in your knowledge of its symptoms. Keep a journal. I keep one to record my thoughts and emotions. Especially when I have dosage changes, or medication changes, or stressful life events. I look for positive, and negative emotional and cognitive changes. Otherwise I may not be able to tell my pdoc what works , and what doesn't. Really educate yourself, but try not to obsess. I did for a while. I don't now. I wish you the very best.

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Thanks for this. I come from a family where my dad is a doctor, so I tend to obsess about anything medical and/or health related. The fact that we now have things like Google to easily do a search sometimes can make it worse because then I feel like I'm self-diagnosing, if that makes sense. I know it's all new and I need to give it time, but I just keep asking myself 'why me? and why now at 42 years old?' It's hard enough living with a disability that I was born with, now I have this to add to my plate. Sorry, I just don't know what to do. I wanna cry but the tears won't come for some reason. I can feel my heart racing and feeling shaky. UGH!!!