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Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight
Dear T,
I know I said you could just reply to my text at some point before our session, Tuesday, but, um, if you could respond before then, that would be good. I just hate the unsettled feeling, thinking you're annoyed with me or sick of me. I know you'll say we had to stop last session because the time was up, not for some other reason, but I just felt weird about it all and don't know how to explain it. And then you not responding to the e-mails. I really hope that's not you being all into boundary tightening. Because I like when you loosen them a tiny bit. Still very tight compared to MC's boundaries (which seem to bother you at times--maybe because they lead to me being more attached to him, and then you have to deal their effect on me), but still, less tight than you had. Really, I'm just concerned you feel like you're getting too close again and are trying to back off, but I didn't want to say that in the text. Especially since you basically admitted a few weeks ago that you love me too. I like when you're a bit closer and not as detached.
Love,
LT
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Dear T,
Thanks for responding, I guess? But your response kind of made me feel a bit worse...I mean, basically saying that you don't know what I'm talking about. That you don't always respond to e-mails, so aren't sure why that's anything different...and that we could discuss the "weird vibe" thing next session. Just felt very invalidating...Could you have at least tossed in an "I'm sorry if you got a weird vibe--I wasn't feeling any differently toward you" or "Sorry if you're feeling that way--I don't feel that way about you at all, let's discuss next week." Because...I hate to say this, but the response I wish you'd given? That's the sort of thing that MC would say. Yeah, he's much more self-doubting and apologetic in general, but I think with things like feelings and emotions, that's often a good thing. Not sure whether to send you an actual response tomorrow or to just be like, "OK thanks." Will see how I feel in the morning...
--LT