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Originally Posted by Hashi/bipolar mom
I fear I won't have hope again. My therapist and I discussed this today. I'm scared, fearful and oh so so tired. When I was diagnosed last June with BP, I had hope. I thought I finally had an answer to what was wrong with me and that I would magically find the right meds and ride off into the sunset. Boy, was I WRONG! My "hope tank" is about empty. I love hope! Hope is up there with hypomania! It's a wonderful feeling! I haven't felt it in a really long time. Does that answer anything or is that just confusing?
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I felt that way many, many times. So often before being diagnosed. But after being diagnosed when the only thing my pdoc at the time would give me for sleep was zyprexa and I kept gaining weight on it. I felt completely hopeless. Well I brought my sister in with me and it really made him mad. I was like I know there's another way and I want you to help us find it. He was like we just can no longer work together. He kept telling me that going up on trazadone was useless. Anyway I got a new Dr. She slowly decreased the zyprexa and increased the trazadone. I'm stable now! I've lost 22 lbs and still losing. I've never felt better. I still have my physical problems but I have hope again! Don't give up! You can find the right cocktail and get stable too. Don't give up!
