I fear that I may not be able to handle the stress of working again. I'm stable now. But I don't have many responsibilities. I hope I can handle it but I fear I won't be able to. So I'm going to start with volunteering. See if I can manage that. If I can then I want to go back to college and get a degree in administration work. That's what I used to do but things have changed. I so hope I can work again. That psychosis and back injury and surgery really effected me. So we'll see. My family says that for right now just enjoy the stability.