Hey t, you know how I said in the past "how will I ever say goodbye to you?" Well I know the answer to that question now. Especially since the dream I Thad a couple nights ago that solidified it for me. I've got "us", this relationship, inside me now. And I know how to reach into that place to calm myself down, feel through my feelings, and let them go and think logically. I did it this morning with h - he said something that initially I started reacting emotionally to but then I just kinda naturally saw what I was doing and I took a breath and reached into that place and found the calm that I feel sitting in your office and it was enough, t, it was enough! I felt through it, let it float away, and applied logical thinking to the situation. That was pretty amazing, if you ask me.