Although I smoke pot for an e tended period of time, I never considered that an addiction. Tried coke a few times and it never seemed to hold my interest. Was never interested in alcohol growing up. Although I love lsd, MDA/mdma, shrooms, DMT, and so on, I never considered myself addicted. It was an occasional thing that I considered to be a spiritual experience. Was prescribed Xanax at a young age, and tried Rx stimulants when I was a teenager, I liked benzos, but was able to moderate my consumption.
Then I met oxy. It changed my life, I truly never imagined that I could physically feel that amazing, it was truly revolutionary. But oxy is expensive, and now damn near impossible to find. Went through just about every Rx painkiller known, fentanyl being a favourite, tabs could get me through a day. But pills are expensive and not in steady supply. Heroine is cheap and always around. After a period of time I decided I wanted to get clean and a friend turned me on to Suboxone and subutex. It not only got me through the day, but it was incredibly cheap and was in steady supply. I quickly became hooked for several years.
Getting out of that lifestyle seemed to be the hardest thing I've done, but now 6 months sober from opiates and recreational Rx.
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