stefano, I was going to say, I am so glad my birth mother didn't abort me. She would have done if she hadn't be Roman Catholic, but I know when depression hits, its just not logical how I thinking goes. Its for me least ways a bargain with life that if I dont feel better and pain free soon, then I'm gonna tell ya that I didn't want to live this wonderful life....because really no matter what Happens to us in life, life is wonderful. Each time I hear the wind blow in through the trees I am in awe, each time I see the dew on the grass I am in awe, the problem never was life, the problem is in my thinking, I use it to protect myself, I hurt so I refuse to acknowledge the other feelings I have, that I am in love with life. LIfe wouldnt hurt so much if it wasn' that we loved it so much? But as I say, I was going to say all this and changed my mind, or did I? LOL.

Take care.