Rasps,

You are needed here. Your mission in this side of town isn't over, until The Supreme Force says it is.
The more you can take the mundane, the more spiritual you will become.
Feelings and thoughts can be quelled, or let loose and expect harm.

Being one of the complete and lucky ones, you, better than many, have to take this world's crap for longer. You were built for it. Let the weak and the frail contemplate the easy altenative.
Your transition will be clean. And in due time. Way in the future. When your mission is fully accomplished. Grown grandkids and everything. Carry on. p