I too can relate. While depression has left me at times totally debilitating it comes and goes. It is the Anxiety that hngs like a cloud over me at all times - as though I m constantly waiting for the rain to fall and ruin everything. Anxiety is responsible for many of the decisions I have made in my life, ruined relationships (or been the root cause for getting into unhealthy ones), caused me to avoid what may have been positive situations, and been disasterous for my employment history.

I understand too the medication bit. I don't know what a benzo is but I do know my own anxiety medication has wreaked havoc on my body and self-image (I have gained 30lbs in 6 months). Yes it worked and I have pleasantly been anxiety free but it is that side effect for which the pdoc has decided to wean me off. Drats that the Anxiety is again rearing it's ugly head.

But, it isn't as bad (yet) s it was before. I have graduated from a CBT program and honestly think it has been helping. I am confident the Anxiety this time around will be somewhat controllable.