Well my first thought is that are you misconstruing an aquaintanceship as a friendship?

I don't like hurting people but this had been going on far too long and I feel compelled to speak my mind.

You have a problem.

People have been giving you very good advice but you seem to be choosing to ignore it. Instead of looking within, realizing and acknowledging your own responsibility for creating the relationship situations around you, you are instead blaming everyone. Yes, you ARE creating this mess, BUT you can also create positive relationships too! It all begins with taking responsibility. It means acknowledging that a relationship is about give and take. If you expect something of someone you MUST do something for them in return.

Here are somethings I have learned from my CBT...

Write out for yourself a 'Creedo'. List off those things you recognize about you and your personality. The list should include those things that aren't so positive. Now, look at that list. How can you make the most of the positive? Are there thiings about the negative that you can make an agreement to change? Can you set yourself plan to do so?

Make up an Evidence For/Evidence Against chart to examine some situations in you life. For instance, Evidence For people avoiding you/Evidence Against this. It should be easier now to draw up a plan to enact change.

Consider a difficult situtation you are dealing with - like being unable to catch rides to church. What is the Worst case scenario. What is the Best. Now list off the Likely scenario. Is the likely case so bad? How can you deal with it? Regarding the worst case; make a plan of action. Also, is it so bad? For example if you can't get a ride to church then maybe finding a local church is the solution.