[quote=Frankbtl;5116325]Hi Greg

I completely agree with the time to rest, time to heal
And I'd also suggest a little less of the holding things in/bottling things up, trying to live up to others expectations, comparing yourself to others........??
If you're hurting you're hurting, and that matters...........and the fact that you're struggling as you are doesn't make you weak, some of the strongest people on the planet can be severely limited by depression/MI..........and some others who who just easily cope despite whatever.........I wouldn't necessarily call them stronger, I'd more say they were fortunate not to have to experience the crushing feelings of..........
So keep on talking about it as you are, hey??
Sometimes finding the right help/support can make a real big difference, or at least make those "hard times" just a little easier...........and maybe we can help a little with that/on your road forward??
And hey, with all this cowboy up "stuff", it must have taken a lot to start speaking out as you are........so I'm impressed, you're clearly already on that road in identifying and talking about issues andthat's such an important start
And........hoping that you stick with us for support on a journey to feeling better

One last thing though , the "cowboy up" just brought this to mind:

Maybe it could resonate............???

thinking about "what is mental illness"? I don't really have a great definition but I DO KNOW that it hurts......a lot. I don't like asking for help but perhaps it would be a good idea. my mind tells me, "what can those people (therapists, etc.) know that I don't know?" Good question. Probably nothing. How can a stranger know more about how my mind functions than I do? How do you trust someone with so much? The whole thing just pisses me off.