My T told me that when we are able to handle our past bad memories they will come to us. I have only remembered very few memories from my childhood before age 12 - and he was right, they came when I was able to deal with them in T with him. One time I told him how upset I was that I had many years with no memory and he replied that it was probably best that I not remember. When I am ready, the memories would come and he would help me deal with them - which he had. I have learned not to worry about what I can't remember - it does not do any good to worry about them. They will either return or they won't. And not all the memories are bad - some of them are good memories but since they happened when bad things were happening around the same time they got buried with the rest. Sometimes they return in dreams which I then relate to my T who helps me understand them. What in the world would we (I) do without my T?