Was that you I saw out walking. I would like to think it was but it probably wasn't. So I held on for a day. That is pretty good going I reckon. Even with your email it disappeared. I usually don't feel through your emails a fraction of what I felt through you in that session so this is no surpise to me. This is such a new situation it is confusing, exciting, scary, worrying, pleasant and horrible. I am not used to feeling anything so I am not surprised that I am struggling with it all. This certainly is not for the faint hearted is it. I am glad H goes away again soon, only two weeks I think now so I won't have that worry but being alone does have its own challenges. You said that most people who go to therapy just turn up once a week and don't really give it too much thought in between. How is that even possible. I suppose that they aren't doing the same kind of work but I cannot seem to switch off from it all. Tuesday seems like such a long time away.