Not sure if you have a question or not, but if you want an advanced education, math is such a nice and powerful tool.

Stuff like biology and physics really interest me. But only taking calculus, especially multivariate, I had these 'oh wow' moments where I marveled at how a complex problem was reduced so elegantly to something simple. Yes, it was still difficult. But learning it felt like a revelation. It had more aesthetic power than learning about cosmology or learning about biochemistry.

Math is so bittersweet and such a bane to so many people. And it spreads like a meme, it seems. People learn to fear math before they take it.

If a person truly believe math is unnecessarily difficult and pointless, you will not be successful in math. But so many people have this mindset. And of course then it become a negative feedback loop.