Oh hey Lucy, I don't mean YOU should be in another section. I meant, maybe this section isn't for specifics. (you know, they say we can't mention weight because it is a trigger - maybe food specifics is a trigger too). I feel like I am still finding my way around this the BED area. If anyone should be in a whole other area, it would be me, because I purge sometimes.

Seriously, I just don't have a solution for my eating issues and I don't know what steps to take. Disclosing on the bipolar and borderline threads helps me, but I don't know if it helps here. Maybe that is why this area does have so few posters - because we are dealing with it so individually. I don't even know if we can help each other.

I have wondered if I eat more when I talk about it with people on here. I don't know if it makes me feel like I am okay the way I am. I just thought, it is something I never tried.

Lucy, if you didn't post, you would be missed. Seriously.

I thought about taking extra meds to sleep more, to help me eat less. Maybe it is all excuses and the simple fact is I eat too much and should just be able to stop. BED is very confusing, because it is so subtle. It isn't like I see bruises because I allow myself to be abused, or I have memories of some issue that bothers me, or that I have swinging emotions because of my BP and BPD. It is just .... food. I don't know, maybe it isn't even the food. Maybe it is the boredom combined with anxiety.