Draffon, I have never met anyone who had antisocial personality disorder who was worried about having antisocial personality disorder. They may be worried about other concerns that impact them more, maybe like insomnia, but people with ASPD really don't care that they hurt others.

You have a significant trauma history, and emotional numbness is a very typical reaction to trauma. When emotions get to be too much, it makes sense to shut them off. Therapy can definitely help with that.

Fnordian, I think I understand your point. There is a reason that special education includes above average students as well as below average. Both groups tend to have a lot of struggles and to require accomodation to take into account individual abilities and deficits. And just because you have genious level intelligence doesn't mean that your abilities to deal with emotions and social interaction will match. And it's rough when people tend to assume that you have those skills, since you seem intelligent, and they they expect you to be able to perform at a level that isn't appropriate for you. Sometimes intelligence can help you to compensate, but other times it can interfere.

I disagree about being able to have meaningful interactions with people when there is a significant difference in intelligence. It may take empathy and other skills, but it can happen. I have above average intelligence myself (but not good social skills except where I have worked hard to develop specific ones), and I work with developmentally disabled clients. I have meaningful interactions and connection with people even though there is more than 100 points difference in our IQ scores. Yes, we have different interests. I just have to be aware of that, and find out what my client is interested in. That can be a stimulating challenge at times.