So I'm staying. They accepted my request and now I'm going to get my training starting on monday. Writing this there is a part of me that fear that I'm being dupped and in monday I'm going to find that they are giving me the same work for no discernable reason than to hurt me, but this I believe is my anxiety and my mentality of "always prepare for the worse, if something good happens, then something bad MUST be about to occur" that I'm changing with the help of my therapist.

I feel... good. Even if it's not a true job, even if I'm not earning money, I... guess I'm afraid of losing any kind of work related situation and I feel safe because I know the place I guess? That I can learn and try for something better? That I didn't made the wrong choice? It's bizarre but I'm happy that I can finally start my training and become better worker with each day.