i don't know how to feel anymore. I cannot trust anyone. I am suspicious of everyone. So many years have passed and yet it seems like yesterday. i still dream of the awful time. i am angry, sad, disgusted, violated. why did that happen? i often wonder if that was a lesson of some sort. why should children go through something so awful? i wish that my childhood would have remained innocent as it should have. was i not entitled?! why do they make it so hard to get justice for the crime committed against us? does the pain not show on our faces?

sorry feeling i am feeling down today.