And I cannot tell my family, they are super religious and against abortions. I think that after a huge fight they will try to convince me to keep the baby and now I don't see myself alone in this, a single mother with a crazy selfish ex that may never want to see the child. And a new business, and all the stress from that, what kind of life the child will have knowing how he was abandoned by his father. And that his father loves her/his stepsister that exists also. What is the child's fault that I was so stupid to love and trust his father?