I can see the patterns of behavior happening and I watch myself following and I send a prayer for grace and love to just stop. it's okay, I'm okay and if I sit here and the world turns with out me, I can still feel the magic of the rain falling outside. "Everything will be turn out alright and if it is not working, it is not yet the end" to quote one of my favorite movies "Hotel Marigold." I phoned to say what dates I was coming home and my parents aren't picking up the phone. I left a message on their answering machine. Maybe when I travel thousands of miles, I will end up saying hello on their answering machine too. I'd better practice my "hellos."