T--i really didn't expect you to write me back so late last night. Once again, YOU ARE SO NICE. ugh. i felt good about the e-mail for about 30 seconds, and then i really hated myself because i feel like i don't deserve it. i laid in bed with my heart racing, wanting to rip all the skin off my body and felt like i'd never sleep. what is wrong with me this week? luckily, seroquel is amazing and i was able to go to sleep.

i guess i'll see if there are any repurcussions to all the contact i made this week on Monday. Thankfully I have a pretty full weekend to distract me.