everything hurts so much like something tearing inside clawing and ripping shredding my insides. like there is something inside me trying to destroy me. like something is screaming inside me crying out but no one can hear it. i want to cry all the time and everything hurts so so so much i cant take it all i think about all day long is ending it all. i have been in and out of hospital the last 2 months. my head is not mine and i cant make it stop it never stops. but nobody cares everyone has given up on me i feel like i should give up too.