If you need pdoc's help in stopping you, will you be okay until your appointment? Do you need to call him now and get some help? I don't know if you've done any more, but if it helps you can still refer to your 7 year clean streak and say you have only slipped once in 7 years, and then 8, 9, 10 years...

So don't give up on staying safe just because you had a slip, ok? What healthy coping skills are you using now? Start from where you are, and keep moving forward.

TC,
Rap