Hello. This is just to let my emotions out, but feel free to read and reply. So on Friday, I was in class, and it's almost exam time so my teacher was talking about exam review. But then he said it was on a different day than I thought, so then I have to go into school another day to write this exam. This parts not the big deal, but I freaked out. I thought it was an in-class exam but it isn't. The only reason I became super anxious is because I'm allowed accommodations because of my anxiety, ASD, and LD, and since I thought it was in-class, I didn't set up accommodations for me during the exam. And all the negative thoughts rushed in like "what if I need the extra time, and since I now don't have it, I don't finish the exam and fail" or "I can't remember the formula and lose all these marks to a question or two and get a 60" stuff like that. So I found someone from special services as we call them, and I talked to her about it, but I was balling. Like, crying heavily if I didn't use the right word before. I was really tired and get more emotional than needed when exhausted, but I became so overwhelmed with the fact that I was going to fail that exam that I couldn't handle it, ya know. Hopefully, I'll be able to set up my accommodations still. I booked them for my other courses already, because my accommodations were due two weeks ago. So that's mainly why I'm worried. They need to talk to the head first (there was someone else there in the room so), but hopefully everything will be fine. I am still worried about it, just less. I wouldn't have acted like that if I had enough sleep, but I didn't so that's what I get. I even told the person me not making the accommodations was 100% my fault because it was. I wasn't lying when I said it was my fault. It was. I assumed that my exam was in-class because the prerequisite to this course's exam was in-class. She told me that if I knew it wasn't in-class before, I would have made the accommodations and such, which is true. She told me to not worry about it. So this threw off my mood for the rest of the day. I could barely focus. I took a break my last period. Needed one desperately. I just watched YouTube videos the rest of the day to take my mind off it.

So that was my exciting day. I hope it turns out well for me on Monday.

Social anxiety disorder, ASD, GAD, OCD, and panic disorder

Lexapro, 10 mg; Ativan 0.5 mg PRN