I've been obsessed with it all day, but tried to limit time on it.
I think it's possible that what I've been doing is legit, that I'm on to something, and that it's also possible it's just a manic cycle, or a mix of both. I haven't won yet. Big at least. Which isn't even the goal. To win small prizes often would prove the point, which is the real driver. It's not random. Tonight, 40% of the numbers came from numbers in the last 5 draws. And 27 came up which was one of my top 3 numbers. It held true that 4 of 5 were above 25 ( and that 3 counting powerball were odd, which almost always happens (that at least 3 are odd, usually 4).

The more I talk about it the more I think it's a mix of bipolar and of actually being on to patterns, which I wouldn't notice if not for bipolar.

Or I read or see more into perceived patterns.

I took more risperdal the last couple nights than I had been. It may have helped some.

If I stay focused on it tomorrow, I'm going to call doctor Monday. I want to be able to explore things like this but also not be so consumed by it that I miss sleep and can't focus on anything else because there's numbers in my head that won't stop. I honestly feel like I don't remember what it was like before the numbers. They've been with me for 3 weeks.