Well medicaments can help your body but cannot help your mind .You must work with your mind .A useful program at here about shyness and social anxiety its a more natural solution for anxiety and low self esteem .Here you will learn how to work on your brain and delete bad thoughts from there .You i read you have very severe childhood and this create some bad trauma in you and this afect you ,i was also in your siuation and i am still afected but its more better for me now.You must reprogram your subconstient mind and take the power of trauma from there with autosugestion .Good luck to you