Thank you, Esthersvirtue, today has been a hard day, I keep wanting to go hide inside of myself. . .too close to the stuff, I think. It was hard to write, I felt raw after I wrote it, and even more so once it was posted for every one to read. Ugh. But it let it go from my heart for a little while. I didn't feel so burdened by it for the first time. I made my first appointment with a therapist in fifteen years for Monday. I'm looking forward to it, and wanting to run from it all at the same time. Sigh. It hurts.
I am glad that I am an adult. Very glad. Thank you for your warm hug, it was gladly received and much appreciated and needed!

Bethanna