Oh my dear friend. ((((((((((((Leslie))))))))))). I sure love talking to you on the phone. Your such a kind person, so much to offer.

I know how close you were and still are to your dad. He sounds like he was a special man. I know how much you truly miss him and I am sorry that you lost him all too soon.

Leslie, I would love to take my mom's pain away. My tummy turned into knots talking to her, I tried so hard to keep it "together". But when she fell apart, I could vision her sitting there, trembling in sadness. I want to take this away so badly, and I can't stand being so flipping helpless.

I will always support my mom. I have never judged her during any of this. When she does say that she has had enough, I just listen. My sisters get mad at her, tell her this is wrong. My mom now feels like she can't tell them how see feels. She always tells me, everyday, how much she appreciates that I have never done this to her, and she feels safe to vent her despair to me. I cried myself to sleep, thinking of how can I possible help her. I guess just being here for her is all I can do.

I know life is not fair. My mom just lost someone she knows. This shook her up very badly. These people she knows where she lives just lost their 1 and a half year old. The poor little guy fell down some stairs, killing him instantly with a broken neck. She just kept saying why honey, why did that little boy only have a year and a half of life?

His mother is a wreck, of course feeling so much guilt. My heart goes out to this family in their desperate time of need. Please say a prayer with me for them. I do know many here are not religious, I don't want to offend anyone. I can't imagine what they are going through, like I say, damn it; life is not fair.

His funeral is next week, my mom will be attending. Sadness fills the air, doesn't it!!

Thanks u two, I wish you strength as well. I love u dearly Leslie. You are such a wonderful lady. Looking forward to talking to u soon. I adore your accent; lol, how cute it is. hehe.

I am looking at a scanner right now, wanting to buy it. I will someday put a picture of me on here, then u can see me when I babble on here; lol. Scary thought; lol.

Justy