The last time i tried Provigil and Dextroamphetamine (for depression) on seperate occasions--they both made me really tired, so i quit. I always thought it was just a myth that becoming tired after taking a stimulant means you have ADD? I find it hard to believe, but maybe someone here can explain why. Provigil isn't a conventional ADD medication, but it's often prescribed for excessive sleepiness to promote wakefulness. But yet, i got very tired from it.

I've also found that nearly no doctors even understand the physiology behind these and other psychiatric medications. They don't research. I didn't research much either, but i think stimulants can raise your blood sugar, which could make you really tired.

I have taken Dextroamphetamine in the past, and it was very helpful. The reason why it was calming for me is that it takes away the constant worry/anxiety/background noise i have from not being able to focus, day long procrastination, and helps me concentrate and complete activities. When this effect happens, it provides a sense of relief. It raises my mood-so i feel more productive, confident, and active, which lifted my depression, at least temporarily. It also helped with fatigue, and since I have daily fatigue for several years now, it zapped away my hopelessness.

I had an old script of Dextroamphetamine from 2 years ago lying around and decided to re-try it. It melted my depression-it was like it quenched a thirst in my brain for what ever hormone, neurotransmitter, or whatever, it was lacking. it really helped my mood, only a small dose twice a day.

Considering i have treatment resistant depression, i asked my doctor for this medication, telling her i have taken it in the past as prescribed by my psychiatrist. She totally ignored my request and instead prescribed me Effexor again. I've retried Effexor 4 times in the past 4 years--and stayed on it for months at a time before quitting. I told her this and she still prescribed me the Effexor. I asked another doctor for Dextroamphetamine, and they too, would not prescribe it.

I don't know what's worse-having TRD where no drugs work, or knowing that a drug works but not being allowed to take it. This drug is safer than Effexor and atypical antipsychotics that they have prescribed me in the past. I don't understand why I have to suffer day in and day out when there is a drug that helps me. I would only take this temporarily to help get my life back together. I don't understand. I don't have problems with substance abuse. And really, only a small percentage of patients have addiction issues.

It makes me suicidal that doctors want to make me take drugs that don't work, while I'm not allowed to take one that works. I have been going through this for 2 years. I just want to die.