Hello Shattered Sanity,
Thank you to have answered to these questions. I like your motto. You seem to have a lot of sadness inside of you. I'm sorry about that. You said it was a good thing for you to found this site. Younger, I also found a psychological forum which helped me to express everything that I wasn't able to say in my childhood.
About your " lack of understanding ", could you say more ? Or maybe, is there a place where you speak about that ?
Have a good day.