Hey everyone.

I really don't have any friends. This is due to my family. For example: I would bring a friend over to hang out and play video games and once he/she leaves they will say they don't like him or something along those lines. I was in a relationship and my dad said that it's not good. The loneliness is killing me, badly. I have one best friend I have known since high school (I am 20 right now) and they like her alot. Everyone else is a nope.
Whenever I ask to go out I get extreme anxiety. I went clothes shopping today and I had so much anxiety buying shorts (didn't buy them because I didn't want my parents not liking it).
I talked with my dad today about friends in general since I don't go out or spend time with anyone and he's like "friends are just acquaintances, there are no real friends". I have one more year living with them until I graduate and I plan on leaving forever and actually starting up my life for grad school.
I dorm at a school that is 15 minutes away, that is how bad it is. They always call and text me to see what I am doing, how everything is, etc. every single day...
I can't see myself going the whole summer not hanging out or talking with anyone except my therapist. My dad blames my anxiety and all and my therapist and psychiatrist said it's because it stems from them and always being strict with me.